A Paradox



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Forget Everything

Forget everything I’ve said before. I have contemplated starting a new blog, but then realized that to be a true reflection of myself I would want to keep the old blog with posts from years ago. My old post are from a time when I did not work 60 hours a week and had all the time in the world to find cool and inspiring things on the internet. Lately I have been missing inspiration, and blogging. Today, I was working a memorial. My role as event manager today required me to listen to the speeches and memories waiting for the right moment to press play. So while I had the music cued up I listened to a very heartfelt story about this man who was an air-force pilot and it seemed all around badass. As the speaker, a very surly large bearded man’s man began to break down and sob I pressed play and over the speakers came the Eagles Desperado. This song has long been a favorite of mine. And evidently it was the deceased favorite too. This was a pretty heavy moment and I realized that I am party to many heavy moments. Years ago I was searching for moments, now they come to me daily. It is my job to be a part of peoples heavy moments. All of these moments just sit in my heart. I am so used to it now that I don’t even talk about the heavy, personal moments I am part of every day. So today I decided it would be “healthy” for me to blog. Mostly my new blogs will be a way for me to document and release all of these little moments.  I will need to keep details vague to keep the anonymity of my clients. I know I’d be weirded out if I found out my very personal moments were being blogged about. 

So True

"You have two choices: You can come down from the mountain and spend the rest of your days thinking it was so beautiful there, or you can create a vision, look upward, see the next mountain, and start the climb all over again."

—  Oprah

Lots of awesome insightful internal dialog, no time to blog it.

Christmas Goose

5D Mark II & a macro lens

Christmas at my house

Neon Boyfriend. 

Paper Camera App

Man, I’m lagging on blogging. It’s not like I’ve been too busy. It is more the fact that I have someone to share my life with, so I no longer feel compelled to use my blog to vent. But I love the creative process of blogging so, now I need to re establish a purpose for blogging. Or maybe start another blog dedicated to creativity. 

Bought myself a fancy new Scooter. 

Yes Please. Oxygen!

Busy painting for a show I have to hang in a week and half. This piece is 48x60” and no where near done. Plus I have four other unfinished pieces I have to get done…. 

I went to my first church memorial service yesterday for an old WWII vet who befriended me years ago. He would flirt with me and sing me songs about the man on the flying trapeze. I felt obligated to say goodbye to him. But shortly after getting there I realized that this was not my cup o’ tea. Besides the fact that I knew no one, I was put off by the reciting of hymns and the singing of ridiculous songs. And what of the eating the body of Christ thing? I just stayed in my seat for that part. It was all fascinating and a bit cult-like. But the part of the service I disliked the most was all of the standing up, sitting down and kneeling. Whats with the calisthenics in a small pew? 

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